Weekend evening blues

Good evening!


While most of you are probably out galavanting around the city since it is Friday evening, I'm home alone watching the History channel and enjoying some white wine. As I sit in my den, admiring my pseudo-intellectual attempt at a relaxing evening in, the historic battle scene being re-enacted on the History Channel tunes me in to some recent tendencies that I have been exhibiting lately on a regular basis; I've been trying, actively, to learn every day, literary with the goal of becoming as close to a "know it all" as I possibly can be. The other day, when chatting with a few people at a volunteer meeting, I described myself as Cheer from the movie "Clueless," when she and her friend/subject start to workout together and choose a reading list to remain physically and intellectually stimulated. That's like so totally what I do. I have a reading list that I've been following and adding to, I've tried to remain somewhat healthy, and I've tried to workout on a regular basis. Wow, am I becoming so pathetic that I have to goal orient myself to achieve certain goals that should ideally just come naturally? My conclusion is thus that I have simply become lazier and so I must physically schedule in reading and workout times and goals in order to achieve goals. Why? Why have I become so complacent that I don't naturally feel the need to learn and grow? I know everyone has these challenges, but this can only mean one thing-as people we are really not automatically born with the drive and persistence to learn and push our bodies, we must discipline and train ourselves. In the same way that we can train horses and dogs, we must also be trained, except that it is more challenging because we can only rely on ourselves and/or other people to train us. No other type of organism that currently exists can exert power over us so that we may be trained. This is wonderful and it speaks to the truly free nature human beings are given at birth, but also to the fact that with greater freedom, we also tend to engage less responsibility. We don't workout, we eat more, we don't read when we don't feel like it. Understanding why we do this is key to taking action against the lackadasical attitude. And so I resume my "learning night," turning back to my programming, sipping my wine, and of course, signing off for the evening. Tune in next time, because in order to know it all, you've gotta' know me! xox -The Know It All New Yorker-